In all things, I am thankful

So for the month of October, God really had a lot that he showed me and helped me learn! The first week was actually a very difficult one with the loss of my friend and I actually wasn’t able to really think on everything the way I wanted to and let myself grieve. I had so many things going on trying to get ready to take what I had hoped could’ve been my last test before graduation and my mom had been in the hospital with an injured hand. God works in mysterious ways though because with all that happened with losing my friend, my mom being hurt and many other things that happened…I learned that I really need to live my life to the fullest. I cant be living in fear or in the past because when you think about the fact that you might not have another day to live…it really turns your world upside down and you think of everything in a new light. There are things that you used to think mattered that you realize at the end of the day didn’t really matter to the extent that you thought. There was a reason that I wasn’t able to get all the studying in that I wanted and there’s a reason that I didn’t pass that day. I don’t understand everything but I know that God really does have something beautiful in all the things that seem to go wrong. Sometimes things have to go wrong for us to really grasp the lessons that we would never have learned if things had been going right.

Part 2--the sweeter the kiss

So it’s not exactly “tomorrow” like I promised, and I apologize for that!
My summer was one of the best and busiest that I’ve had in a long time…as I mentioned in my last post, I decided that part of what I want this year of age 21 to be about for me…is reaching dreams and goals that I’ve either been afraid to go for or just have kept putting off. So the month of August found me at college…trying to finish school. I was scared to death believe me! The first step (arranging the tests) was the scariest and hardest for me…and yet after I finally did it, I was thinking to myself “why on earth did I wait so long?!” Well, the first 4 of my tests (which I took over the course of the month) went so much better than I could’ve ever hoped. I passed 2 of them with flying colors, and the other 2 I did really well with as well! I was able to go visit some family for family reunion…and that was a week where I really feel like I was able to grow some. The next couple weeks were really busy as well, and I had a surprise at the end of the month when I was able to see someone that is really special to me! I honestly didn’t think I’d be able to see him till November and although the circumstances for why he was home early were really sad, I was so grateful that he got the chance to do so and that I was lucky enough to see him within the first week that he came home. It really meant the world to me that I was one of the only people that knew that he was home and that he made time with me in spite of how busy he was! The title of my last post fit so perfectly, because the fact that he and I waited so long before being able to see each other, really did make the kisses all the sweeter and the wait was worth it! September was really crazy as well…and near the end of the month my mom had to go to the hospital so I was busy taking care of her and studying and such for my last test. I experienced the loss of a very dear friend of mine that my family has known my whole life, as well as helping my man deal with a loss himself, so it was a very difficult month. Needless to say, with all the hard times and stress, it made it hard to study and I didn’t pass the last test that I took. I do see some of the reasons for it though and am thankful that God is helping me learn to be more responsible for my time and to really grow and apply myself even in the hard times. It becomes so easy to just sit back and not do anything when life is difficult, so that was and is a hard lesson that I’ve been learning.

The Longer the Waiting, The sweeter the kiss

Hi friends! I honestly dont even know where to begin since it's been so long, and now that I think of it..I really dont think I even posted any updates during the summer!
Well to start off with: June, I was able to visit my aunt and uncle down at their house that they own on the beach! My family went there right after my sister moved to the beach..to visit her as well. :) It’s been so different having her gone but it was good seeing everyone!  A little later that same month, one of my other aunts came for a visit and we went to the beach again with her. I really had some of the best times with her and was able to relax and tune in more in my relationship with God and just have a lot of time to think which was really nice!

July came around, and was super busy. That’s really all I can remember…My aunt left the first week and then I was busy getting ready for my trip to Creation Fest! Honestly, it was one of the best weeks all summer! I really learned a lot from the different speakers and artists that were there! I noticed that God also had me go out of my comfort zone in so many ways and experiences that week…which was actually an answer to prayer cause one thing that I came to acknowledge was that I was really letting fear control me way too much and I wanted to change that but didn’t know how. So Creation was the first week of me actually taking time to improve that area of my life and believe me, I had my opportunities and really was beyond my element which I’m so thankful for because even though there were a lot of people that weren’t there that I wanted to be with…I really think it was one of the best years ever. I really loved the people that I worked with and I was able to meet people that I would’ve never been able to know if I  would’ve let fear control me! I actually have a God moment that I want to share in one of my posts in the future…about one of the new friends that I made! Honestly, I really believe that God brought her into my life…it was the craziest thing and she and I really didn’t go to as many concerts. I really don’t think there were that many groups that I actually went and saw this year mainly cause she and I were talking a majority of the time at our campsite that we shared. It’s not even the kind of girl chat that you would think, cause I know what you’re probably thinking “wow Kallayah, you go to creation and then you don’t go to a lot of the concerts cause you’re having girly time talking at the campsites” but it wasn’t like that at all ahha. She and I were able to talk about our relationships with God and what we felt he has been calling us too and it was just amazing. Anyway…that was a fantastic week and then the week after was a big one too since I turned 21! I still cant believe it and I know you wouldn’t think that much would change…it’s not even the fact that I’m not a minor anymore. For some reason, 21 seems like the year that I want to face my fears and meet as many goals and dreams as possible. And believe me, right from the first day of being 21 I did just that. Anyway, since I have limited time on here…I cant really go into anymore detail than that but will hopefully tomorrow! Anyway, I just wanted to post an update to let y’all know that I’m alive just been super busy! Hope you all are doing well and that you are blessed!