Visions

Carayzay things have been goin' on today!! My whole family is sick..as am I ; again ha. But today was nice..beautiful sun was out. I always love when the sunshowers pour over my face..it lightens my life/day so much, and since I was sick today it gave me a cheerful vibe that I very much so needed. :)
My mom and I got to share some bonding time..mainly just watching funny video clips/funny pics on fb. It dawned on me today that pretty much everyone in my family is going for their dreams in some shape or form and I think that was another thing that made me so happy today. My dad is going back to college again to get his Masters...and just today, we all found out that my younger sister Abby has been accepted to George Fox..which is crazy to think of since she is my little sis and I never thought this day would come so soon haha! It's super encouraging too cause i know she's a grade or so behind and yet she hasn't let anything slow her down for what she wants to do! Also my dad..after all these years going back to college and running in races again..so inspiring! The past couple days I've been thinking of what I want to do and after the different things that have been going on in the past month..things are becoming a lot clearer I would say. I'm starting to see what I actually want in life..both for a future job, and just more of the woman that I want to become for God and my future family/husband, as well as my current family and friends. I think just being sick 2x in the past week and a half has really been teaching me a lot. I'm not the type that likes to just NOT do anything..makes me feel useless, ya know? But today I was really encouraged to just at least read up on the different things I'm interested in developing more..it was a good day. I've also been getting back to my art finally! Haha did 4 pictures over the weekends..mainly of 2 important people to me. I have to say that it was so refreshing to get back to my artistic side..poetic side too, as I added poem type stuff to my pics...and I found that i learned more about the people that I was drawing pics of. It really awoke something within me..and caused me to want to reach inside to really grasp the things that I've been keeping hidden for a while.
Today..another crazy thing happened..though it seemed like nothing, I got a dance magazine that I didn't realize I even signed up for aha and it just really did something to my heart, made me realize just how much of a passion I have for all thigns art and creativity. The past 2 days I've been talking a lot more to my cousin..and we've been talking a lot about YWAM and hers and my connection therein..I really feel that maybe this could be the direction I head but I want to be absolutely sure about it. Something else I want to share..is that over the past week I have really been discovering so much about myself..things that I never knew, things that I had forgotten and I feel more alive than ever and ready to move forward in my life. I know that God has something wonderful in store and I am more than excited to see what that is! I think I have been too scared for so long that I refused to realize that I have these different desires for art/missions and the like. I'm finally really becoming and expressing myself better and it feels so freeing. I share these things in the hope that if there is anyone out there..if you feel like your life is going no where or if you are scared of what your future has for you..know that things CAN change. Even if you feel stuck, God WILL and CAN pull you out if you let him!! He really can give you a fresh start and help you let go of the past..whether its past hurts or just things you've done that you're not proud of..he is there and he can give you something to wake up excited about cause he is doing that for me! There is this quote that I read today and it really fits everything I've been facing the past month and I hope it is of encouragement to you as well!

"I can’t say I’m proud of my life, but I can say I’m proud that I’ve learned. I can’t guarantee I’ll be able to walk around with a smile, but I know where I’ve been and where I’m going. I know who I am and who my friends are. I’ve had some tough stuff thrown at me, but I’ve gotten by. I’m not one to complain so I’ll keep trying and in the end, I’ll know I did my best...."
This quote to me..really shows how as long as you give God your everything..give life your best..that is all that really matters and God will take that and turn it into something so beautiful your mind won't be able to contain it! :)
I know this is already a ridiculously long blog entry..but I want to share a devotional that was really encouraging to me this week and fits with what I've been talkin about today:
Vision:Do you have a vision for your life? It CAN be a reality! A good way to develop and pursue your vision is to see it in your imagination and talk about it as if it has already happened. See yourself the way God's word says you can be..having great things and your needs met.
Write down your goals..describe your ideal self's activities, appearance, values etc
Make it concrete so it feels as real as possible..by writing your goals, you help bring them to the real world.
Keep your list where you can see it often to check your progress and make sure your visions line up with God's word & have the right focus cause these visions can serve as stepping stones towards the person that God created you to be and the life he wants fo ryou. Don't ever give up on these visions that you think God has given you, until you have seen them come to pass. :)
-Love out Loud by Joyce Meyer
I hope y'all have a fantastic day or night whenever you read this..and until next time, know that I love you all! :)